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[June 14th, 3:06pm] |
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Very very excited! I've been working on a bunch of new songs, and I was finally able to borrow a mic from a friend..... maybe I'll finally be able to get a decent recording done!!
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| The cons of trying to be healthy |
[February 11th, 9:02am] |
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So this past month or so, I've been making passive attempts at becoming more healthy. Such as going to sleep earlier, eating less greasy foods, thinking about exercising...
Last night I decided that I would use a more aggressive approach. I figured I would start with little things and gradually build it up. Like exercising in little increments - a few minutes here and there. And eating breakfast.
So, I stretched before going to bed, and woke up quite refreshed at 6:30 this morning. Got ready for work, and had a banana for breakfast around 7:15.
It is now past 9:30 almost 2.5 hours since breakfast, and I am STARVING!!!!
There's a Subway and a Starbucks right next door, but there's no way to get any food because I'm the only person at work, and I can't leave the place unattended.
Maybe I'll start gnawing on my arm...
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[November 28th, 8:11pm] |
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Better Than Me by Hinder |
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School, work, and just life in general is draining me so much that I haven't been able to do much but dream about sleeping for weeks on end. Worry about the holiday season at work is taking up most of my brain space, and the rest is occupied by school/life.
So it's strange... I'm suddenly struck by how much I miss writing.
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| Tarantula cookies! :D |
[October 27th, 10:10am] |
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In the spirit of Halloween, here are pictures of the Tarantula Cookies I made a week and a half ago... aren't they adorable?
( Very messy to make... )
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| Uh-Oh... |
[October 23rd, 9:10am] |
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 calm yet panicking... weird |
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quiet humming of printers |
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Gah!!!
*runs around like headless chicken*
I have a midterm and a paper due middle of this week... Wednesday and Thursday... *gulp*... TOMORROW! and I can't focus!!
I keep thinking that I have time... I'll study later. BUT I DON'T HAVE TIME!!!
What is wrong with me?
Also, I keep reading the same lines over and over again, but nothing I'm reading registers in my brain. Part of me is panicking, but the other part of me doesn't care and keeps thinking... "Sleeeeeep... need sleep..."
I need to shake myself out of this. I can sleep this weekend.
*hits head repeatedly against wall*
... am I burning out already?
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| *Twitch* |
[October 11th, 8:10am] |
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I am so exhausted. Mentally, physically, and emotionally.
For the past week and a half my left eye has been twitching nonstop. At first, I thought to myself "Cool... I'm twitching!" because I'm weird like that.
But now it's just getting ridiculously annoying.
I think the mountain-loads of reading I'm doing for classes and lack of sleep has something to do with my spasming eye... just a little. ^_^
( twitchy caffeineted Ames )
Boxes have taken over my room!
I was in the middle of trying to make the switch from summer clothes to autumn/winter clothes when I got really sleepy. So I took a nap.
I haven't had time to sort through anything since.
I think I'll leave the boxes out for a while... make a fashion statement for my room. I think it looks nice having boxes stacked in the middle of my room.
It's like having my very own personal Leaning Tower of Pisa. :P
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| Over-worked and over-stressed |
[October 3rd, 9:10pm] |
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Classes are kicking my ass... and it's only the middle of the second week of the school year!
>.<
I've been studying my ass off, and I'm still behind on all my readings. Which means I've been running on low sleep, low energy, and tons of caffeine. Not to mention work.
On the bright side, I'm enjoying all my classes. ^_^
To congratulate myself for finishing a paper, I decided to veg out a little tonight. Meaning I ate a crap load of candy along with half a large pizza, lots of yummy chocolate chip cookies, and even more junk food. All on my own.
I think I'm going to puke.
this weekend is going to be "catch-up" reading... that is... if I make it to the weekend without my brain exploding.
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| Fall Term begins |
[September 24th, 6:09pm] |
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clicky-clacky of keyboards |
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Finished first day of classes!
Mon and Wed:
Fantasy & the Canon (also on Fri)
The Short Story
Critical Approach to Literature
Tue and Thur:
The Bible as Literature
Desktop Publishing
Which means I only have one class on Fridays!! No more early morning classes every single day of the week... this term my earliest class start at 12:45 pm. No am classes! Yay me! :D
Hmm... hopefully I won't drop any of these classes later in the term. I want to graduate, damn't!
*hurries off to start on readings*
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| Hair Woes |
[September 5th, 4:09pm] |
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OI!
I just got a haircut a couple of days ago.
At first, after they cut it, washed it, and styled it, I thought "It looks pretty cool. I like it - I look more mature... more my age."
My cousin took one look at my hair and said "You look japanese."
"I've always looked like that... do you like it?"
"You look younger."
*headdesk*
And now, when I look at it, it resembles one thing: a mullet.
A MULLET!!!
>.<
And I really liked my hair before I cut it. It was long - down to the middle of my back - straight, and it didn't look like a mullet
The thing is, I don't think my new haircut would be too bad... if only I knew how to style it. I just don't know what to do with it because I don't know how to use hair products.
It's a very japanesey hair cut. It is now shoulder length with a lot of volume/layers on the top part, then it tapers down so that there's barely any hair at my shoulders.... hence the mullet.
*sigh*
I'm going to give it a few more days, and if I can't figure out a way to make it look less... what's the word... mullety, then I'm going to go to a hair salon and ask them to chop off the bottom part. :P
No mullet for Ames, no sirree!
^_^
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| There's nothing like being sick |
[August 18th, 1:08am] |
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Am very sick.... again.
I've been very sick for the past two and a half weeks (with the flu/cold), but nothing was that serious until this morning. I woke up, and the lymph nodes on the side of my neck right under my jaw were swollen visibly... along with a fever that started the night before.
It royally sucks that I'm in such a condition, but at the same time, I really appreciate it (as strange as it sounds) because I can tell how much my entire family (both immediate and extended, nearby and across the Pacific Ocean) love me. They've done all they could to help me, and I feel so lucky to be a part of such a wonderful clan.
Now if only I can get well right away...
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| A wonderful surprise |
[July 28th, 4:07pm] |
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I finally have the last Harry Potter book!!!
I wasn't going to buy the book until the end of summer when all my classes have finished, and I actually have time to read, but my plans were ruined by my family.
My brother called me Friday afternoon to confirm that I haven't gotten the book yet - he was getting it for me and would be bringing it back home with him when he came back for the weekend.
Then Friday night, my parents told me that they had a surprise for me. My response was: Is it edible? They just laughed and told me that the surprise would make me smile. ^_^ It turned out that they had gotten me Deathly Hallows!!
Alas... I want to read it... it's tempting me. And I've been carrying the book around with me everywhere, but I don't have TIME to read!!! At least not anything non-school related.
Somehow, I've read three chapters so far... during my lunch break at work. And I so desperately want to finish the rest. But I've got a huge pile of reading and writing to do.
And there the Harry Potter book sits... beckoning me to procrastinate and be irresponsible.
NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
^_^
(silly me)
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| Glorious Day!!! |
[July 26th, 11:07am] |
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... and then there was wireless internet at home...
Whee!! Look at how fast the internet goes! No more slow dial up for Ames!! ^_^
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| Just another day at work... |
[June 30th, 12:06pm] |
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Work is generally a fun atmosphere for me. The type of fun I had while doing homework when I was very young. (I know... strange, eh?)
An elderly gentleman walked into the store today, looking a bit out of sorts. I greeted him brightly, and he glared at me. After perusing the store a bit, he asked me if we sold two-cent stamps.
"Of course!" I replied, opening the drawer we store the stamps in. "How many do you need? A book of two-cent stamps has twenty stamps."
"I don't need that many stamps." He growled at me.
"Ok... How many would you like?" I smiled at him, and waited patiently for his answer.
"Give me two dollars worth of two-cent stamps."
"Oh." I paused and looked at the stamps I was holding in my hand. "Each book is only fifty cents."
"I don't need an entire book of stamps, damn't!! I only need ten stamps!" His face started getting very red.
"Well-" I started to try to explain to him that two dollars worth of stamps would equal four books of stamps.
"Forget it." He stormed out of the store, muttering about how inept I was.
o.O
I'm so lucky I get to work with grumpy people.
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| ^_^ |
[June 18th, 5:06pm] |
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Because I was bored...
| You Are An Orange Girl | 
You live in the fast lane. You love action, risk, and competition.
You're spontaneous, enthusiastic, and persuasive.
But you're also easily bored - and love to rebel against structures.
You resent rules ... as well as people's attempts to control you! |
( Click for more )
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| Missing piano |
[April 12th, 9:04pm] |
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I woke up the other day, feeling empty and desolate. As if by waking up, I had lost something extremely dear to me. I couldn't shake the feeling of loss the entire day. Eventually, I remembered what I had been dreaming about right before I woke up.
( Sentimental stuff )
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| The good and the bad |
[March 8th, 8:03pm] |
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"That Girl" by David Choi |
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Bad/sad news:
1. My car... is dead.... *sob*
2. Writing is extremely difficult for me... I can't seem to focus my thoughts.
3. Got stood up by my brother and cousin last weekend. :(
4. Hayfever is making my eyes all itchy and puffy.
5. Am getting lazy and eating craploads of unhealthy food.
Good/happy news:
1. Am looking at new cars! ^_^
2. Spring is here! (kinda...)
3. Ken is in town tonight, and I'm going to hang out with him!
4. Am picking up Joey in Corvallis tomorrow!!!
5. Am waking up early (consistently) and working a lot.
Life news:
1. Am seriously considering chopping off all my hair... or at least go to a hair salon and get it cut.
2. Have fallen in love with chocolate. Never really liked it in the past, but now I do! ^_^
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| :X |
[February 26th, 8:02pm] |
F^%&ING SH*T!!!!
I just slammed my knee into the side of a desk.
The pain.... the pain....
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| Life... |
[February 24th, 1:02pm] |
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Maybe it's the rain, or maybe it's because there's depressing music on in the background, but I feel so... left behind. And useless.
It's like I'm standing in the middle of the road, and I don't know where to go. Walking forward doesn't change anything. I'm still exactly where I last was.
Everyone has real problems and difficult decisions to make, and me? I'm just floating along. I almost envy them the stress they're going through. Because the stress represents the fact that they're really living. They're living out their lives the way they want to, the way they see fit.
Last week, I came up with goals/expectations that I've started working on, but it still seems so meaningless.
It seems like everything I reach for is unattainable. Everything I'm striving for is trivial.
Geesh... why does the radio keep playing such sad songs?
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| Operation: Pretty Nails |
[February 9th, 1:02pm] |
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cheerful |
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In an effort to become more feminine (Operation: Girly Girl), I decided the first step was to stop the horrible (and disgusting) habit of biting my nails. I succeeded for one entire month. And only one month.
So, I have now taken drastic measures. I have gotten.......... fake nails.
yes, it's true. i have fake nails.
Plus side:
1. I don't bite my nails anymore
2. I can now participate in the annoying act of drumming my fingers on a table and hear a satisfying "clickety-click"
3. Don't mess with me. This kitty's got claws! :P
Down side:
1. Am in constant fear of one of the nails dropping off
2. Sometimes feels as if my fingers can't breathe
3. Am wondering if original nails will be yellow once fake nails have been taken off
Things I've learned:
1. Putting on fake nails is harder than it looks
2. I am dismal at applying nail polish
3. My fingers look nicer with unbitten nails
Edit:
(3:30 pm)
Things I've learned #4 - Working at UPS (aka packaging boxes) is not conducive to keeping fake nails glued to real nails.
(20 minutes later...)
Things I've learned #5 - Krazy glue does wonders! ^_^
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| Three months and counting... |
[February 6th, 5:02pm] |
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It's been over three months.
Three months since what, you ask?
Three months since I've touched the piano. The very end of October, to be exact.
Ok... that's not completely true. I lied.
I played a 2-3 minute song on a keyboard for fellowship sometime in November or December (which ended up with my arms in agony for the rest of the night). And I puttered around the piano for about an hour two weeks ago.
Man, oh man... I miss playing just for the sake of playing. Heh... It feels like it's been years since I've truly felt that way about piano.
But I've realized something. I need music. I know it sounds cliche and trite, but it's true. In the past, I was always listening to music through practicing. When I practiced, I had to listen carefully to what I played and tweak at it endlessly. But now, with not being able to practice, I find myself reaching for my ipod or turning on my stereo more and more frequently.
I never understood why my brother was always listening to music in the car. I was forever asking him to either turn down the music, or to turn it off. But now that I'm no longer listening to music through practicing all the time, I'm always searching for opportunities to listen.
I think I need the distraction music holds for me. It keeps my mind calmer, and it offers a serene blanket that keeps my thoughts in a semblance of order. I just never realized how much I needed it before, because music was always there in the form of piano.
God, I feel like such an overdramatic emo teenager saying all of that. But that's ok. I'm convinced that deep down, there's an emo little teenager hiding in us all. ^_^
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